Areyouscared

still crying

Its sad to think that this is my only way to get out all of my emotions.

I cant believe you don’t see how you didn’t hurt me.

I’m sitting here crying my eyes out and you don’t even care.

I feel like I don’t belong anywhere. or with anyone….

im so broken… I just want to stop crying……

When you feel your never enough

I know what its like to be never good enough,

I know the feeling of whating to change to please those around you,

I know what your thinking that maybe if I was different people would be so mean to you,

I know what its like to be made fun of…by the people who dont like you, by people who dont even know you, sometimes by your friends behind your back, also by your family even though they say they love you, or even your boyfriend/girlfriend..

I know the fear of going out in public all because of the people watching you, jugding you, making you feel unwelcome everywhere you go.

I know how you beat yourself up at night and cry yourself to sleep..

Hearing all the things people call you in your head…

YOUR STUPID, YOUR UGLY, YOUR FAT, YOUR WORTHLESS, WHO COULD LOVE A THING LIKE YOU, YOU’LL NEVER MAKE IT, YOU HAVE BAD SKIN, YOUR TOO SHORT, YOUR HAIR IS GROSS, YOUR A WHORE, I WISH YOU’D JUST DIE, GO KILL YOURSELF, WHY DO YOU EVEN TRY, YOUR A MONSTER, NO WONDER YOUR ABUSED ALL THE TIME, IF I LOOKED LIKE YOU I’D RUN AWAY, I HATE YOU, YOUR A LOSER, YOUR A FREAK, YOUR nothing….. 

So close yet so far

We know we love one another but we’re scared of getting hurt again.

We know that we would do anything for the other person but yet we’re skeptical.

We know that we have faith each other but yet the doubt finds its way inside.

We know that we have such a deep bond but that also makes us nervous.

We know we moved really fast in our relationship but it always felt right, and now we’re second guessing ourselves.

We’re so close yet so far from being together again.

I just want to hold you in my arms like before and tell you I love you and you actually believing me for once.

Mr. Anonymous

I cant wait for Monster Con